Tuesday, December 07, 2004

Of Broken Hearts and all that crap

I have this friend who puts "the heart does strange things when it is broken" after each and every email she posts on our egroups. It's pretty sad mainly because we all know who she used to go out with and they were going out for a long time. Compounded with this is the fact that she wanted to get married and he didn't. I feel even more sorry for her because a scarce few weeks before they broke up, she had sent me a nasty email about how she hated my guts, or something to that effect, and she stressed the point that i should be thankful that her BOYFRIEND was too nice to get pissed at me as well. What goes around comes around, I guess, but although I have to admit that it gives me some small measure of satisfaction that she fell flat on her face in that respect, I am not happy at the thought of yet another couple breaking up.

Relationships are so complicated and just when you think you have it all worked out, something comes up and you manage to mess it up. I have the most wonderful boyfriend in the world and yet somehow, I am incapable of measuring up to him. I have no idea why I keep discovering ways to screw up our relationship when he has done nothing to deserve it. Maybe it's because I love him so much that subconsciously, I try not to. I don't know. All I know is that he's one of the most beautiful people I know, inside and out.